Writing about my "first" Sam Shepard experience, got me thinking about a time when everything was fresher for me. Now I'm looking back at where I have been. Maybe to get some ideas about where to go.
There was a time when I thought anything was possible. I was in my mid twenties. I had been planning on moving to Chicago, but was instead heading for New York. My collegiate career was coming to a close. All I had to do was finish that last damn foreign language requirement I had been continuously putting off. This was the summer of 1997. To my own judgement, I had about the best pre-graduate experience anyone could have. I had taken my own sweet time getting to State University since I had immense freedom of expression as well as paid work in theatre at my home town. Finally after 4 years of being a big fish, someone had the good sense to finally kick me out of the local comfort zone and get my ass to state school. Being a few years older than all the other kids didn't hurt when it came to being focused on what I wanted and how to get it. And in a sort of Joseph Campbell like way, there always appeared to be knowledge people along the path who were able to guide or assist me.
We had mainstage shows that the school produced that had to be attended for grades, but we had also a thriving student run season in our small annex space that was most weekends filled to capacity. The productions were diverse. Many were flawed. All of them were free. The community's enthusiasm for work, all kinds of work was intense.
I want to get back to that place where I believe that anything is possible, where every night there was a belief that tonight I am going to either see or do something on stage I've never seen before, where people were more interested in intriguing whoever was in the house rather than counting the number of seats filled.
I want to live in a city with
more risk takers,
less big houses,
more basement production
more guerrilla tactics
more mind blowing
less broadway mentality
I don't want to point fingers at artists who aren't doing what I like. I want to find a network of like minded individuals who can point me instead to those whose work makes something reverberate in me.